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hey, it's a new year's entry
but i guess flashbacks are what i'm most up to these days

i don't know
might be my sick, fatalistic, tragic-oriented mind
that's causing me some paranoia about 2004
that from last year that's a good one to...
well let me not mention it
lest the power of words

year 2003 is something to be remembered with fondness
and then there is 1998
it was a year in black
but something i will not want erased either

because of sentiments such as these
from an october 18 journal entry



back to saturday of october 18...





I am going back to writing-- if only for my sanity. No matter how bad it may turn out, still I will write. I will write with all that I can share. Write with pictures if I can't do it with words. The important thing is to never stop to get in touch with a medium without so as to reach that which is so hidden within.

I am writing that I may be helped to remember, that forgetting would not be as often. That my memory would serve me right would be something definite and not with a question mark.

I am writing and will write again with light. Go back to film, to animate and be alive again no matter how much death there is in life.

I just gotta write.
Write til its all right.